Sunday, April 27, 2008

Compromise, ne pas?

I was watching an episode of Felicity the other with my roommate. The show follows its namesake from high school through college. Felicity is a dramatic, sheltered, California pre-med major who winds up in New York in pursuit of a high school crush. So, in the episode I was watching... Felicity and Ben have been a couple for a few weeks. It is everything she thought she wanted. Only, Felicity reaches a sort of catharsis when she realizes she has had to compromise a lot of the foundational parts of herself to be with this guy. When they break up in the episode, she says:

The truth is, I can't be with you like this. I mean, I know I said that I could, but I can't. I just can't compromise myself like that. I'm an emotional person. I feel things and I need to be able to get upset and talk about how I'm feeling. That's who I am. I can't change it. I don't want to. And the thing is--you knew that. You knew it and you still pursued me; because you want something--you're just not strong enough to have it. Which, in a way, makes you a coward. And the saddest part is that one day, you're going to wake up and realize what you missed and it's going to be too late.

It's so easy when you really want something to hang on to the wanting harder than you hang onto yourself. The more often I say "yes" to that cowardly voice, the easier it gets.

And now for the fun part. Some pics--

Monday, April 21, 2008

The Wedding Toast I Didn't Get the Chance to Give!

It is one of the biggest blessings of my life that I get to grow up and old with such a great sister. She has been the voice that scared off my boogeymen, my living room karaoke partner, the weight to all my hot air balloon ideas, the contractor who built my Barbie towns, my competition, and my best friend. I'm excited today to add a new brother to our family. Brad, I trust the Lord in you and can't wait to see where He takes you as a partnership over the years. May the love you have today grow stronger every morning. Love does not fail. Welcome to the family, Brad. Please raise your glass to my sister and my new brother-in-law.

I love you, Kel!


Wednesday, April 16, 2008

Scalping, Kidneying, Waiting

This is sick.

Let's say I check "yes" on the organ donor section of my driver's license. I'm assuming should an accident happen that allows any vital organs to be saved, my beating heart will immediately be donated to someone who needs one.

There is a huge shady business going on in the medical world. Apparently, when someone becomes a potential organ donor, the hospital is required to contact federally identified organ brokers. The brokers harvest the donated organs and sell them off to desperate families for top dollar.

What's the big deal?

First of all, where does this money go? The Broker? The hospital? It's bogus that in the end, something that was supposed to be a donation ends up increasing insurance premiums and costing the organ donor's family (and everyone else!) more money. The money gained from these organs allegedly goes to pay for the transplant process, but the financial records of the nonprofit organizations are not available.

Secondly, we have no control over this process. It is federally mandated that these "nonprofit" brokers be contacted. (Why is the Federal government involved in this process?) What if I wanted my organs to go to someone freely? There's really no established avenue for that to happen.

Spain has the highest number of donors in the world. There are over 40,000 people in the US waiting for an organ and 1/3 of them will die waiting.

I'm not even sure what made me think of this...



Monday, April 14, 2008

A few to go

Alaska, Deleware, Hawaii, Maryland, Mass., Michigan, Minnesota, Rhode Island, Wisconsin, Vermont, and Virginia

It may be a while, but I'll get there. :)

Plans. Plans. Plans.