Compromise, ne pas?

Sunday, April 27, 2008

I was watching an episode of Felicity the other with my roommate. The show follows its namesake from high school through college. Felicity is a dramatic, sheltered, California pre-med major who winds up in New York in pursuit of a high school crush. So, in the episode I was watching... Felicity and Ben have been a couple for a few weeks. It is everything she thought she wanted. Only, Felicity reaches a sort of catharsis when she realizes she has had to compromise a lot of the foundational parts of herself to be with this guy. When they break up in the episode, she says:

The truth is, I can't be with you like this. I mean, I know I said that I could, but I can't. I just can't compromise myself like that. I'm an emotional person. I feel things and I need to be able to get upset and talk about how I'm feeling. That's who I am. I can't change it. I don't want to. And the thing is--you knew that. You knew it and you still pursued me; because you want something--you're just not strong enough to have it. Which, in a way, makes you a coward. And the saddest part is that one day, you're going to wake up and realize what you missed and it's going to be too late.

It's so easy when you really want something to hang on to the wanting harder than you hang onto yourself. The more often I say "yes" to that cowardly voice, the easier it gets.

And now for the fun part. Some pics--

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